You know that saying, it only takes one second for your whole life to change? Yeah, well, it’s true because in one instant, my entire life did change, and it’ll never be the same. It’s taken me six years to say it out loud.
When I was 21 years old, my mom died. I was a child, but I felt like I needed to be strong, so I told everyone I was okay for years. But deep down, I knew I was hurting. Losing a parent changes you; no matter how old you get, it just does. The very thought of losing a piece of me was something I couldn’t bear for the longest time. And it ate away from me and my happiness for those years. I couldn’t acknowledge my pain because, honestly, it was just too hard. I couldn’t face the thought that I’d never see her again, or she wouldn’t be at my wedding. But with events in my life this year, I was forced to face my pushed down emotions.
And I learned that no one else could ever take the pain away, which a huge part of me has secretly hoped would happen. But no one ever did, and the pain and emotions lingered inside. Until I decided to acknowledge them, and although it was difficult, I needed to heal. So yeah, a split second can change your life forever, but so can the decisions we make. So, it’s important to be easy on ourselves and take things slow, knowing that we are fully capable of becoming happier, healthier people by decisions we make within those seconds.
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