The flowers dry under the sun leaving behind their past and future. Water, the past, and time all stamped permanently in their veins. Nothing can take their history away. Not the sun or rain or destruction of their petals.
The flowers may be gone but will never be forgotten by the world. Instead, they won’t be known as dead but be remembered for time for what they gave to the world when they were blooming.
Things Unseen
The things unseen become frightening. For you never know what’s to come. The fear holds you back from walking forward. But then the unknown abyss becomes your world, for everything becomes unknown. The unknown shouldn’t be feared but accepted. You cannot control the future or the things on the outside.
The Wheel
The wheel that spins over the pier flashes its lights. The metal cage sways with the breeze, back and forth, while your feet dangle above the world below. The dots on the street move in different directions, scattering. They march together to a beat.
I ask, do the people down below feel this breeze? This sense of freedom? Being so up high away from it all can give you perspective.
My friend says, How could they feel free marching in the crowd, following the masses?
Freedom is flying; flying is freedom. Birds are free, and as long as we’re on this wheel, so are we.
Twisted
Twisted under your threads
suffocated under your breath
intertwined with you
enemy to my happiness.
I kept your presence secret,
twisted in your lies
tangled in your webs.
Held under the spell of fear
The enemy was never on the outside
but the thorns that festered within.
Rain
The rain comes, with the downpour of tears.
It comes with a sense of sadness.
While you expose your fears
They see you while the water washes away
the facade you’ve created.
The rain exposes the person you’ve hidden.
Are you afraid you’ll be hated?
Is that why you avoid the rain,
Because the pain was too great?
Caged Bird
A bird flaps its wings, touching each side of its round metal cage. Its lungs suffocate while they expand. You see, birds like this aren’t meant to be enclosed. Their hearts and minds yearn to be free, and capturing them goes against nature. They need to be free to spread their wings. Encasing them against their will causes them to remain frozen in a fleeting moment. And they spend the rest of their lives trying to break free.
Don’t allow yourself to become the bird captured and forever frozen. We aren’t meant to be preserved in the glass-like decomposing butterflies.
Moving Forward
I think all of us want to move forward after last year. But I always have to remind myself that a different year doesn’t mean things disappear. I’ve found one of the best ways to move forward is to accept all the things that are out of my control. Last year felt completely out of my control. But one thing I can control is myself and my ability to grow. The first step is acknowledgment.
My biggest flaw is how much power I give to others. I often ask myself, how can I move forward if I’m always dragging everyone’s opinions with me? The answer is, I can’t. We all have choices that we must make. Not making a decision is a choice. Listening too much to others is a choice. We all make mistakes, or maybe something happens that we can’t control. I vow going forward to be a better version of myself.
I want you to know that you carry the strength to move forward through the dense sand. That’s your power that lies within. Because no matter how tough things get, you always have yourself. Remember that whenever you doubt yourself or a decision. You always have your skills, knowledge, and experience with you, and one day we all have to trust that will be enough. I know that’s a lesson I’m still learning, and if you are too, then good, that means we’re all a little human.
I Want
What do I want from this world?
Sucess or money,
fame or fortune.
I guess it’d all be nice.
But what I want
is to be the best version of myself
and find who I really am.
Because what’s all the treasures worth
if your whole life is a sham?
One Second
You know that saying, it only takes one second for your whole life to change? Yeah, well, it’s true because in one instant, my entire life did change, and it’ll never be the same. It’s taken me six years to say it out loud.
When I was 21 years old, my mom died. I was a child, but I felt like I needed to be strong, so I told everyone I was okay for years. But deep down, I knew I was hurting. Losing a parent changes you; no matter how old you get, it just does. The very thought of losing a piece of me was something I couldn’t bear for the longest time. And it ate away from me and my happiness for those years. I couldn’t acknowledge my pain because, honestly, it was just too hard. I couldn’t face the thought that I’d never see her again, or she wouldn’t be at my wedding. But with events in my life this year, I was forced to face my pushed down emotions.
And I learned that no one else could ever take the pain away, which a huge part of me has secretly hoped would happen. But no one ever did, and the pain and emotions lingered inside. Until I decided to acknowledge them, and although it was difficult, I needed to heal. So yeah, a split second can change your life forever, but so can the decisions we make. So, it’s important to be easy on ourselves and take things slow, knowing that we are fully capable of becoming happier, healthier people by decisions we make within those seconds.
Outside
There was this woman,
so beautiful and small,
but no one ever listened
and she often felt like a doll.
Being dragged around
powerless and voiceless
but perfect on the outside.
Is that the price one must pay these days?
To be perceived as perfect.
Do you have to lose everything?
If so, then it’s better to be ugly
And leave it all behind
After all, there is no world without our minds.
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